'Tis the Season

I've been dreading this time of year, and this weekend officially kicked it off. My birthday, Jenni's birthday, Thanksgiving, our anniversary, and then Christmas all line up neatly over the next few months. Celebrating anything, even when there are people around, still feels like I'm celebrating alone. It just doesn't feel right.

If the loneliness had turned a bit dull, it has certainly sharpened of late. A year ago today, at around this time, friends and family were showing up at the house for the best birthday party I've ever been thrown. Who else has a wife who would take the time to organize a Magic tournament in his living room? I was a lucky man. I am still a lucky man to have had her in my life as long as she was...

I think I'll order a pizza and then pretend I'm not home when trick or treaters come by. Maybe I can find something to do to keep my mind off of things. Jenni would pitch a fit if she saw the house so unkempt. Maybe I'll spend some time trying to remedy that...