Lazy Sunday Morning

How do you know you've gotten too fat?

I'll tell you how... when you wash all of the shirts you've been wearing recently but forget to move them to the dryer, then wake up Sunday morning and try to fit into some older shirts... and realize that everything you owned a year ago fits like spandex.

My shirts are in the dryer now. Hopefully they'll be dry in time to get to church. I'm not going in pseudo-spandex. And now, with a basketball tournament coming up in January and a bunch of t-shirts that don't fit anymore, I think it's time to get serious about getting back in shape.

There's only one problem with getting back in shape, though. I've decided to visit Judge's BBQ more often. It used to be at the top of my list of places to eat in Hickory, so Jenni and I used to eat there pretty regularly. Strange as it may sound, one of my favorite dinners consists of BBQ from Judge's with Sticky Fingers sauce that Jenni bought me last year for Christmas. I almost completely stopped going to Judge's after Jenni died. It brought back memories that I was avoiding. But the other day, I realized that the Sticky Fingers sauce Jenni bought me will eventually go bad... and I need to use it.

So last night, I got takeout. The girl at the drive through even recognized me... probably from my order. Who else goes to a BBQ place and says he doesn't need any sauce? I brought the food home, poured on some Sticky Fingers Carolina Classic sauce, and made it through the meal without feeling depressed. It almost felt like Jenni was there with me. Maybe she was. I sort of felt like I was doing her a favor... enjoying one of the last gifts she gave me before it was too late to use it at all. It was strangely comforting. I don't know how else to describe it.

And now, here I am setting two contradictory goals: get more takeout from Judge's and work on getting back in shape. Jenni would be laughing at me for this, I'm sure. "How exactly do you plan on eating out more and losing weight at the same time?"

We'll see how it goes.